The holidays were abysmal. I have been having an affair for the past 8 years with a man who was also married. However, your mind is playing tricks on you to make your current actions doable. I was infatuated with him right away.
When the main reason of looking somewhere else was their lack of love and respect.
I just found someone who was there when no one else was.
All the while my wife vacillated between demanding I leave, or waiting to see if Girlfrd would come out of this.
I miss talking so deeply about random things.
But I am going crazy because I cannot stop loving the woman I fell in love with.
He still wants me and says I am a prisoner of my own emotion and he was willing to do anything for me and change his life.
Im a strong believer in Christ.
I pray and ask God to help me fins a solution.
THAT is an act of caring and love.
I read that is the wrong way, i will live with my shame and guilt as i have but i will not return to that sin.
Sometimes you wonder if you are the same person girlfrd used to be, or even if you know who you are.
And I badly wanted to believe her.
As much as it will girlfrd to hear it from you, it will hurt much worse to hear it from someone else.
But mostly I would hate the affect I would cause to all 7 kids his and mine if the all came out, since they all treat each other like sisters and brothers.